Friday, March 28, 2008

Heartache Moto

Blogging is sort of theraputic.

Spending some time alone, sipping Green-tea Frap and blogging.

I had 3 tako-tao octopus ball and now a Frap.

Pure Indulgence, to pump up my endorphines.

Tetra Box test is such a joke. 5 out of 13 people came for the meeting. Out of which only 3 spoke and questioned their heart content out. Some commented that they are happy with their performance ratings, so no need to attend the meeting. Strange people. This is not even a venting out meeting. Its a meeting to help us understand about the goals we will make for 2008.

Somebody please knock me in the head! Am I dreaming?? Are their brains functioning?? Or are they brain dead?

I so want a career change. Events? Advertising? Crafting? Dance teacher? Fitness Instructor??

What a nasty feeling.

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An hour later...

- Almost finishing my Green-tea frap

- Surfing and purchasing scrapbook materials online

- Feeling much much lighter

- Chatting with a dear friend, SuLin...all the way from London. I love her!

- Endorphines are working, its flowing thru....yee ha.

Have to pack up real soon. SWYF anniversary mass tonight. I'm begining to enjoy moments like these on my own. I have so little time for myself. Forever rushing from place to place.

toodles-

xoxo

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Series of Unfortunate Events

A never ending torture...
Indeed a true gung hole....
A place where only the weak and 'yes man' survives...
....that's the place I call Work!

Situation has worsen.

People are unhappy.

...but who is voicing out?? Only a handful. In their eyes I'm a trouble maker. 'For what? May I ask?' Just because I speak the truth?

There is no doubt that my managers are not managing people. Only God knows what are they managing. Machine perhaps?

An HR consultant told me that there are 2 things you need to survive a job.

1. Your love for the job
2. A good manager

No.2 can work without No.1 but No.1 cannot work without No.2. Bottom line we need good managers. Sometimes what we need is a lil care and concern, now isn't that fair trade? Treat us good and we stay.

Who in their right frame of mind would not want to work in a good environment? Well I will repeat again, Tetra Box Test is a gung hole. The whole organization under Boon is a bunch of crap. Empty promises over and over again. Boon, please make yourself useful...help your employee's.

Nauseating managers like Loo, Goh Wah who is power crazy. In retrospect, Goh Wah is quite good at bribing his people, he plays his cards well, knows how to angkat our boss...see, now he's managing LTD and MOL. Did I mentioned that he's racist too?? Awww.....(3 cheers for the man)

Unlike Loo who basically has the whole team dislike him. Yes people talk behind. The boss who does not acknowledge us when we walk pass.....we're invisible. Oh and he has his girlfriend in our team whom he does 1/2 of her job task and AMAZINGLY gets a high rating (not to mentioned a big fat PROMOTION too). If we do not do the things that she asked, Loo will question and fire us. Hey I'm not making up stories, ask the team. One guy even told me he saw Loo creating reports for his girlfriend's MR3.2.4 project. How interesting is that?? Boy am I tempted to do an official complain.

And we have this other guy Loh who doesnt have back bone at all.....cant make decisions, no stands, nothing!....absolutely ZILCH! He listens doumbly to Loo. I pity him.

The sight of them really detest me.

How do I get myself to work everyday? It's only by the Grace of God. Yes I sometimes have deep anger towards them but God always soften my heart and in the end I feel sorry and sad.

Sorry because they only view perspective from one angle, but in actual fact if perspectives can be viewed from other angles, only then can they obtain the complete picture.

Sad because, in this selfish journey of theirs, they have hurt plenty.

I pray for God's grace and mercy to take control over our meeting tomorrow. Holy Spirit, guide us!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Scrapping my latest hobby...

I actually have a blog just for scrapping - www.scrappernista.blogspot.com (pretty empty for now)

Is it necessary?? Cant give an answer. I should just put it all on one blog huh?

Oh well, blogging is darn addictive, my biggest obstacle is T I M E, I need like 36 hours in a day.

So lazy to work...

xoxo

Monday, March 17, 2008

My bed, my bed, why have you forsaken me?

Terribly tired.
I need my sleep.
When oh when?
Didnt manage to have proper rest last night. I could see flashes of events even when I tried to sleep, guess theres too many things going on.
Haih! Ballet exam is stressing me out. I keep forgetting my steps. Darn! My teacher is getting pissed off.....as much as I hate to admit it, think I deserve it.
Woke up at 8am to practice for 1/2 hour before getting ready for work. Its a lot of hard work. Every single piece of exercise is done with a pointe feet, mine is bad...turn out sucks too. Mentally its killing me too.
Cant even skip my workout class today coz I need to build stamina for the exam, after which there's mass @ CHS, 8pm (i'm singing). And then immediately after mass, I have Easter practice ......gosh, I so want my bed right now.
Was literally sleeping off in training just now.
*Yawn*
ZzzzZzzzZzzzz

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Passion or Hobby?

I cant pinpoint if scrapbooking is just a hobby or passion??


I do know that after all these years dancing is still my passion. I absolutely adore stepping into dance studios, being lost in time trying to perfect a movement. A sucker for techniques....OooOo, love the feeling of my muscles stretching to its core, tearing it bit by bit. Sorry for sounding like a sadist but once a technique is nailed, we soar higher than an eagle. Sensational!!! .....Lol.....


Coming back to scrapbooking. I have always had an eye for crafting. The natural ability to color coordinate tastefully. My style is more of bohemian/retro feel.


I did my first layout last sunday for a "love x 5" challenge by smidapaper.


Oh btw, our ever first Scrapbook store in Penang http://www.smidapaper.com/ @ Burma road. Plenty of stuff in the shop plus classes...be sure to visit the store. Prices are a lil steep....but either than that, its a perfect cosy shop. I love it.
So how do you like my first layout? I know its rather simple. But hey its my first...and i took 2 hours to get this done.


xoxo

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Happy 27th Birthday Yang....

Big big special xoxo for my sayang!!!!

I am so excited for you.... finally some private time together, lunching away and dinner with ur parents.

Anyways i gotta go prepare....

xoxo