ALP_JustFine_Low_170608 - Tracy Chan

Gosh...this was our second practice, still unsure of steps!

We need more practice.

Watching this Tonight...

My department is treating us for HULK 2 later...7.05pm @ Queens

Hows the movie? I dont remember watching Hulk 1 as well...Hmmm...

Darn, he's looking nasty!

Dreams..

So why in the world am I blogging at 2pm?? *Big meal for lunch (oyster noodles) * and I need to finish explaining a flowchart, so the obvious would be...I'm too darn LAZY to finish my work.

My muscles are slightly aching from the long hours of dance practice. We have a last minute performance for SGGS graduation night @ E&O.....so we've been torturing and tearing muscles.

Somebody called me today and ask for my assistance to teach this group of people to dance for an opening event. I was so reluctant...coz I've been deprived from sleep lately, my schedule's really pack, and worse... I'm almost a perfectionist(when it comes to dance *winks*). I need to have certain standards, its tough teaching those who dont have rythm and not getting the choreography. Totally drives me nuts. And if its a church event...I dont charge for my service and stress...LOL!

I was asked today why dont I open my own studio? Well it was my dream till lately.......to be able to teach I would need passion (no qualms bout that) and also TechNIQUE! (which I totally suck)...I can bluff my way around for performance but for long term, wont work!

Lately i've been video-ing my dance practices and seriously been critiquing myself so much that I've been having second thoughts bout my capability to dance. Sigh! Pretty depressing I must say......

.....but then again, the sheer fact of being artistic, is being able to express from within....so really there's no right or wrong. So why the big fuss Sharon??

The expectations I set for myself is too damn high....but I WILL achieve it someday...

Here are some pics from last nights practice.

Circular Spring

The end of song no.1

(Andrea, Christine, Sharon, Tracy & MO)

Sudden crave for Fried Chicken

Few weeks ago, I had this craving for fried chicken......but not KFC!

So aaron and myself put our 2 hour lunch break on friday to full use......we took a stroll to town and lunch-in @ Tajudin

The chicken was alright, nothing to shout about. Cargas would have hit the spot. Anyways here are some pics.

Hungry, Hungry, Hungry!

Pretty pathetic fried chicken, since I was craving....it did it for me!

A finished meal. They gave a lot of rice.....that was before the petrol price hike. LOL!

Happy Daddy's Day!

Indeed it was a good celebration.

Good time with Dad, mom, raymond & aaron. We missed you Sheryl!

Dinner @ Tanjung Tokong , Malay ala thai food.... followed by coffee @ starbucks.

Family, what would I do without them? Absolutely my life.

Kangkung ikan masin, Tomyam sotong, Ayam 3-rasa, Taugeh Belacan, Telur Dadar, Petai w/ Prawns......(salivating now)

After a full meal....time for the camera! Dad-io will be in KL for 2 weeks.....will miss him!

Not too gloomy Monday

Surprisingly, its quite an OK monday.

Came in late to work because of last night's hazelnut latte. Kept me awake till dawn.

Its 5.25 pm, time to pack up and head home. Time for rest? How I wish....there's choir practice at 8.30pm. I'm seriously in need of a shopping spree...NOW, right this moment. I'm so lacking of clothes but as usual Aaron will complain that I have too many of em and that I'm addicted to shopping. Gosh, addicted??!! What a strong word. Lets paraphrase it to "I lurvvee Shopping".

Anyways im yacking crap. Too tired to think.

I finished season 6 of Sex in the City last night. How is it? Pretty good ending but if the 'sex' elements were taken out of the show, will there still be a show? At the end of the day, its about four ladies who's searching for love and to be loved in all the wrong places. I've never been too keen in 'Sex in the City' but strangely I'm sort of waiting for the movie to be released.

Wonder what happens to Carrie & Mr. Big??

xoxo

Happy Monday

Yippie, another public holiday....Its Wesak Day!

Had a fantastic sleep till 2pm, took a shower and had lunch at sushi king.

And now am blogging from Starbucks, borders. Life is great without work. So stress-free. How I wish everyday was like this.

Tomorrow its my first class for Ballet Grade 7, new studio, new teacher. Hopefully all is well.

xoxo

Receive the power liturgical dance

Danced by Cathedral of the Holy Spirit's youth. Praise God.

..:::: NYANYI BAGI DIA - True Worshippers ::::..

Love this song...brings a big fat smile to my face. Danced this song with the Sabah Youths.....had a blast.

God is Great!

Happy Birthday Mik Miks

Am here in KL for the weekend.........our cousin, Mikhail's first birthday.

Having a wonderful time with family......relaxing, catching up, laughing, bonding. I love family moments. Aunty said I looked older and stressed. Must be Tetra politics, taken up so much of my precious time.

Am glad my world doesnt revolve around work, work, and work. At the end of the day we're only worth this much to the company, but with LIFE the possibilities are endless. What a great gift from God.

I have a life!
I have God
I have family (heart 'em)
I have Aaron Xavier
I have BEST friends
I have TRUE friends
I have a community

I have values
I have standards
I have conscious
I have wisdom
I have discernment
I have the passion to dance

I have so many things that Money $$$$ CANT buy. Absolutely PRICELESS

Truly blessed indeed.

Anyways I have to get back to the party. Will post up lots of pics later.

xoxo

Jason Evert - Why Modesty?

Girls....do listen to this.

Sleepy Monday?

I should seriously consider buying a pack of coffee beans........ just to smell...LOL! Jokes aside, it de-stresses.

We're in starbucks again! Am accompanying Sayang, he's preparing a talk on Wednesday.

I'm dead tired....for some strange reason, I could not sleep last night and was awake till 5am. I worked till about 12.30am...yes on a sunday....pathetic right?

I submitted my resume for an internal position, sure hope I will get it!

Anyways i'm busy purchasing items from ebay. Not really in the mood to blog....LOL!

Toodles...

xoxo

Unwind..

Love the smell of freshly brewed coffee. (though I'm not a coffee drinker)

For the pass 1 1/2 years, I feel relief after work. It is as if the weight just jumps off my shoulders, and being able to breathe again.

I had a superb time last night during LSS. When we're in God's presence, the moment freezes and all is left is me and Him. Tears streaming down my cheeks, just worshiping, worshiping my King and my friend. Despite of the crazy politics at work, I just praised Him, singing my lungs out to 'All Creation Worships'. The lyrics goes something like this..

You are God, and we praise You
You are Lord, we aclaim You
You are Eternal Father
All creation worship's You
All creation worship's You
Amen.

Beautiful huh?? The song pierced through my heart. All creation worships Him, and here I am worrying about work. I know that God will be my defender...If God is for me, who can be against me?

I really pray that the situation at work will take a 180 degree turn for the better.

I had lunch with some colleagues today, 5 of them. To my amazement, they were venting out their disatisfaction about our managers. They too are unhappy. They too are sick of the place. They too are fed-up.

There's this guy, Calvin Yeoh.....I dont particularly get along with him but as mutual colleagues we're ok. He's like the main guy for Tetra Systems and both L&L adore him. Whatever Calvin says or do, they always agree. If he breaks the rules, L&L are absolutely ok. If we complain bout calvin to L&L, the just listen and wont take action. Take example of the most recent case, Calvin is creating a new template for HLTD and he sent out an FTR (Formal technical review). So we are suppose to review the document, comment, fix the document, send for 2nd FTR then only can there be a rollout. While we were reviewing the doc, he sent a rollout and asked the contractors to apply it. So YV went to raise the issue with small L (mind you, he's our manager) and he just kept quiet. Its blatantly wrong, but small L just kept his mouth shut......is he waiting for the cows to come home??

If they cannot handle situations like this, then dont become managers.

Dictionary.com defines the word Manager as:
man·ag·er
–noun
1. a person who has control or direction of an institution, business, etc., or of a part, division, or phase of it.
2. a person who manages: the manager of our track team.
3. a person who controls and manipulates resources and expenditures, as of a household.
4. British. (formerly) a theatrical producer.

Dont you think its time for them to take charge?? Becoming true managers??

As long as I'm in Box, I will do everything within my means to do things right. (*SMILES*)

This is just the begining.

xoxo

Full Day

This is how a full day of mine looks like:

8.00am -- Alarm RINGSSSS

8.45am -- Got out of bed to get ready for work, pack my clothes for Ballet later, then to church, pack toiletries, stationaries....

9.20am -- Petrol station for gas

9.45am -- Work begins

11.30am -- Lunch

Work, Work, Work, Work, Work, more work, Work, Work, Work.....and more and more WORK!

5.00pm -- Leave work

5.30pm -- Ballet Class

7.15pm -- Ballet class ends, head to Aaron's to freshen up

8.00pm -- SWYF LSS second week

11.00pm -- LSS ends, off to Lam Wah Ee hospital to visit a friends mom

11.30pm-- Dinner? Depends on wheather i'm zonk out...

12.00am/12.30am -- Reach home.....YEY!

Shower, and my BED........ahhhh...Room Sweet Room...

1.ooam -- Snooze

So so tired with my busy schedule.....I need REST.

xoxo

Heartache Moto

Blogging is sort of theraputic.

Spending some time alone, sipping Green-tea Frap and blogging.

I had 3 tako-tao octopus ball and now a Frap.

Pure Indulgence, to pump up my endorphines.

Tetra Box test is such a joke. 5 out of 13 people came for the meeting. Out of which only 3 spoke and questioned their heart content out. Some commented that they are happy with their performance ratings, so no need to attend the meeting. Strange people. This is not even a venting out meeting. Its a meeting to help us understand about the goals we will make for 2008.

Somebody please knock me in the head! Am I dreaming?? Are their brains functioning?? Or are they brain dead?

I so want a career change. Events? Advertising? Crafting? Dance teacher? Fitness Instructor??

What a nasty feeling.

.............................................................................

An hour later...

- Almost finishing my Green-tea frap

- Surfing and purchasing scrapbook materials online

- Feeling much much lighter

- Chatting with a dear friend, SuLin...all the way from London. I love her!

- Endorphines are working, its flowing thru....yee ha.

Have to pack up real soon. SWYF anniversary mass tonight. I'm begining to enjoy moments like these on my own. I have so little time for myself. Forever rushing from place to place.

toodles-

xoxo

Series of Unfortunate Events

A never ending torture...

Indeed a true gung hole....

A place where only the weak and 'yes man' survives...

....that's the place I call Work!

Situation has worsen.

People are unhappy.

...but who is voicing out?? Only a handful. In their eyes I'm a trouble maker. 'For what? May I ask?' Just because I speak the truth?

There is no doubt that my managers are not managing people. Only God knows what are they managing. Machine perhaps?

An HR consultant told me that there are 2 things you need to survive a job.

1. Your love for the job
2. A good manager

No.2 can work without No.1 but No.1 cannot work without No.2. Bottom line we need good managers. Sometimes what we need is a lil care and concern, now isn't that fair trade? Treat us good and we stay.

Who in their right frame of mind would not want to work in a good environment? Well I will repeat again, Tetra Box Test is a gung hole. The whole organization under Boon is a bunch of crap. Empty promises over and over again. Boon, please make yourself useful...help your employee's.

Nauseating managers like Loo, Goh Wah who is power crazy. In retrospect, Goh Wah is quite good at bribing his people, he plays his cards well, knows how to angkat our boss...see, now he's managing LTD and MOL. Did I mentioned that he's racist too?? Awww.....(3 cheers for the man)

Unlike Loo who basically has the whole team dislike him. Yes people talk behind. The boss who does not acknowledge us when we walk pass.....we're invisible. Oh and he has his girlfriend in our team whom he does 1/2 of her job task and AMAZINGLY gets a high rating (not to mentioned a big fat PROMOTION too). If we do not do the things that she asked, Loo will question and fire us. Hey I'm not making up stories, ask the team. One guy even told me he saw Loo creating reports for his girlfriend's MR3.2.4 project. How interesting is that?? Boy am I tempted to do an official complain.

And we have this other guy Loh who doesnt have back bone at all.....cant make decisions, no stands, nothing!....absolutely ZILCH! He listens doumbly to Loo. I pity him.

The sight of them really detest me.

How do I get myself to work everyday? It's only by the Grace of God. Yes I sometimes have deep anger towards them but God always soften my heart and in the end I feel sorry and sad.

Sorry because they only view perspective from one angle, but in actual fact if perspectives can be viewed from other angles, only then can they obtain the complete picture.

Sad because, in this selfish journey of theirs, they have hurt plenty.

I pray for God's grace and mercy to take control over our meeting tomorrow. Holy Spirit, guide us!

Scrapping my latest hobby...

I actually have a blog just for scrapping - www.scrappernista.blogspot.com (pretty empty for now)

Is it necessary?? Cant give an answer. I should just put it all on one blog huh?

Oh well, blogging is darn addictive, my biggest obstacle is T I M E, I need like 36 hours in a day.

So lazy to work...

xoxo

My bed, my bed, why have you forsaken me?

Terribly tired.

I need my sleep.

When oh when?

Didnt manage to have proper rest last night. I could see flashes of events even when I tried to sleep, guess theres too many things going on.

Haih! Ballet exam is stressing me out. I keep forgetting my steps. Darn! My teacher is getting pissed off.....as much as I hate to admit it, think I deserve it.

Woke up at 8am to practice for 1/2 hour before getting ready for work. Its a lot of hard work. Every single piece of exercise is done with a pointe feet, mine is bad...turn out sucks too. Mentally its killing me too.

Cant even skip my workout class today coz I need to build stamina for the exam, after which there's mass @ CHS, 8pm (i'm singing). And then immediately after mass, I have Easter practice ......gosh, I so want my bed right now.

Was literally sleeping off in training just now.

*Yawn*

ZzzzZzzzZzzzz

Passion or Hobby?

I cant pinpoint if scrapbooking is just a hobby or passion??

I do know that after all these years dancing is still my passion. I absolutely adore stepping into dance studios, being lost in time trying to perfect a movement. A sucker for techniques....OooOo, love the feeling of my muscles stretching to its core, tearing it bit by bit. Sorry for sounding like a sadist but once a technique is nailed, we soar higher than an eagle. Sensational!!! .....Lol.....

Coming back to scrapbooking. I have always had an eye for crafting. The natural ability to color coordinate tastefully. My style is more of bohemian/retro feel.

I did my first layout last sunday for a "love x 5" challenge by smidapaper.

Oh btw, our ever first Scrapbook store in Penang http://www.smidapaper.com/ @ Burma road. Plenty of stuff in the shop plus classes...be sure to visit the store. Prices are a lil steep....but either than that, its a perfect cosy shop. I love it.

So how do you like my first layout? I know its rather simple. But hey its my first...and i took 2 hours to get this done.

xoxo

Happy 27th Birthday Yang....

Big big special xoxo for my sayang!!!!

I am so excited for you.... finally some private time together, lunching away and dinner with ur parents.

Anyways i gotta go prepare....

xoxo