Chinese Dance Competition

The queen with her lady maids...

Those are my male servants....LOL!!!!

The crew with our 'blind' choreographer (juz kiddin)....

Waiting for them to announce the winners.

The finale.......5,6,7,8 dance troupe is good......very professional.....

With our singer, after the competition.

My cutie cousins

Awww....thats 2 1/2 months old baby. " I'm Raul's younger brother, Mickhail"

Look at me!!! I'm dressed in Baby GAP......(so geram, wanna bite you.... handsome miks)

Raul is a handful when he follows us shopping. Such a darling........

Goodbye Aunty Liza

A darling friend of mine, Liara lost her mother last thursday.

It was so sudden. Even I myself find it difficult to believe.

Gonna miss a dancing MAMA, 8z Jalan Delima will never be the same without Aunty Liza but she's in the most wonderful place now......dancing with the angels.

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Appreciate the people around, we may not have the chance to say a proper goodbye.

I'm glad my family is still around. I miss those in KL greatly!!!

Soup for the Soul

There is no doubt but that the person who lives without mortifying himself is someone who will never succeed in saving his soul.

-- St. John Vianney

4 MONTHS??

Thats a long while..

Sorry am terribly busy...

But i blog not for others, just an outlet of my expression.

No worries, I'll be in action soon.

The meaning of my existence

Alarm rings!!! 6.20am, practically jumped out of bed.

Called Aaron. "I'm so tired" says I. "Should I continue sleeping or head to church??"

I then drag myself up to shower.

Finally made it to church 5 past seven am.

So happy to be able to have communion with Him before I start my day.

Had breakfast after mass then drove to work. While driving and singing praises, I felt so thankful being a Christian. An overwhelmed Joy. How many non-Christians will understand the true meaning of overwhelmed joy?? or unconditional love?? or awesomeness??

Many times I wondered, what keeps those without a relationship with God going. What motivates them to live? More often that not it is material possessions. Isnt life meaningless to just chase after all these things? It cant buy joy, love, peace.

I look at some of my colleagues and I think, life means so little to them. Some are workaholic (majority out of town), some spend their time partying away wasting money on booze, some are just confined in their pretty four wall-ed lives. Half of them dont even know why they exist in the first place.

I should not condemn or judge. I can only PRAY!

I on the other hand.......dislike my job (just here to get the money to support my ministries), find that my time is wasted at work, I am only ALIVE is God's presence. Others may look at me as pathetic but I am proud to say I have a relationship with My God. Aint that something? That assurance I have, puts a smile on my face. I love my God.

Its not like i'm not bombarded with problems, tons of it! But I'm learning to handle it with Joy and a pinch of salt. The attitude of the Saints.

Am certainly not wacko but just simply in love with God.

My partner (Holy Spirit) will keep me in check.

Counting down to aaron's bday

trying to shield his candle.

Blury but cute.

He looks adorable

Hey im missing.....but Jess looks good.

More of me...

Side angle to hide my pimple.

With our church friends

Sat night

Getting vain in the middle of the road.

Waiting to be let in to watch "Ah Steve"

I like this pic, pretty candid. Yea it was darn warm and sweaty.

The bride and groom is inside. They paraded around town with this......we waved at them too.

Leading the bridal carriage was a marching band....twas very cool.

cont'

Ice cream?

Sharon & Jess

Aaron & Lean Sing

Stuffed as can be...

Awwww......darlin has got double chin...LOL!

Smiling as if its my bday

Jess's bento set. Quite yummy.

aaron's friends celebrating bday with him

His mini cake

That is his new prezzie from friends.....hmmm its sony erricson!

Over msg(ed) sukiyaki.

Cream on his face......me looking worried?? nehhh....

Happpy Bday!

Delicious garlic rice

I am only a trustee not the OWNER

That line sends me shivers.

God is the OWNER of my life. More often than not, I run my life the way I want to and when things screws up....God is to be blamed. Now how is that fair?

I am currently doing discipleship program for 6 weeks, I have another 4 weeks to go. It was difficult to read the materials and we need to answer challenging questions in our group. I feel so challenged and pushed. I know the time is NOW, I've been playing hide and seek with God for a while......i hate the feeling of having my guts twisted but I also sense an unexplainable sort of joy going thru this. Crazy huh? I cant understand why im experiencing joy.

Whats strange is, the things we're learning now is not very new.......we've been listening to talks that tells us "you cant conform to the world's standards", "you will be faced with trials of many kinds", "pick up your cross(suffering) and follow me". These are not new things, it is in my subconcious....but why is it hitting me only now? Its like a long delay in response....in computer terms "hang time".

The only reason I can think about is D E N I A L. I'm

in Denial to what the bible teaches.

in Denial to apply it in my own life.

in Denial by saying "I cant do this".

in Denial to knowing I'm sinking deeper and deeper into quicksand.

in Denial to say I'm suffering a slow spiritual death...

in Denial to surrender my weekness and let God take control.

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He has sent me a "partner"...and brainy me just forgot about the Holy Spirit. He is there all the time...

Well I pray that by knowing so much truth I will move forward a thousand steps, if I fall, pick me up and kick me to continue.

Honestly after hearing other people share, I find that a lot of people are afraid, afraid to take up the call...i seriously thought I was one of the weirder ones. A relief? Well yes and no. Happy coz I have a boat full of people like me and sad becoz, God has been turned down by soooo many people. It must be hurtful huh? Humans.....very selfish nature, always thinking about "I', "Me", "myself". Not forgetting ungrateful too.

Sigh!

I've got a lot to do.....

Soup for the Soul

First keep the peace within yourself, then you can bring peace to others.

-Thomas à Kempis

Returning violence for violence multiplies violence, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars.

-Martin Luther King, Jr.

We are living in a world that is absolutely transparent, and God is shining through it all the time.

-Thomas Merton

Heart Him!

Its been more than 3 weeks since Valentine's day.

I had a great time! We did a non expensive dinner, took a stroll down gurney drive - surprisingly, gurney was kinda empty, not as merry as previous years. Communication aint a barrier between us, so we chatted, chatted and chatted. Its amazing, after a couple of years we still have so much to talk about. Praise God!

Aaron is just a sweetheart.

Love him!

He has such a big heart and everything a girlfriend could ever ask for.

In some way we are worlds apart......im the wilder version and he is more of the conservative version. Thanks to Liara for always asking, "why not give him a chance?".

Some of my friends were concerned if we could ever work out. Some match made me with their friends...and the story goes on and on.

I heart you sayang!!!!!
My Valentine prezzie from sayang.

Mua opening it in my room

Just a teaser

This is the real deal. Nice not?

My chic sandwich with yummy basil leafsAaron's burgelicious.

Cheongsam

I love it.

Its beautiful.

Its darn uncomfortable to wear especially for a non girlie girl like mua. Had so much problems sitting, standing, walking.

I had to suck in my tummy.

I had to sit up straight.

Boy was it a torture....but I like how it looked on me. * all smiles*

Mama and I

Sweetheart

Raul with his susu bottle

His raccoon from baby Mikhail ( soon to be born brother)

When God Made me, He Was Just Showing Off..

That was an inprint on my mug...a christmas gift.

It was THE line that lifted my spirit.

My usual morning started off ok...a lil tired but survivable.

Had breakfast and found out about a company meeting that happened after I left for my half day leave. Sad? Very I must say.

Managers are suppose to help arent they? Well majority of them makes matters worst. Helping with our performances? nonsence....absolutely zilch. ALthough motorola is an american based company, our plant is in MALAYSIA!!!!! With asian mentality!!! Performance Management Konon! Nothing against Performance Management but to apply into asian culture? Major flop. Wanna know WHY??????

Lets start with Asian bosses arent honest enough. All trying to save their faces, not wanting to be the black sheep.

So you ask them..."How did I perform this checkpoint?" they say " very good or pretty good or not too bad"

Then we ask "anywhere else I can improve?", they say "nothing at this moment but will let you know if any". Here comes the best part, during their summary of dialogue it is included that we have to perform better in this area, that area.

ASSHOLES!!!

When we ask, everything ok.....behind us wahhhh, all negative points arrise.

Serious chicken shit. I LOATHE people with those sort of mentality. YOU dont have the right to become a manager! You may be one now but let me gurantee that you wont have a smooth career if you dont change that mindset. Kiasuness.

Have you heard of What comes around, goes around?? You will have your fair share of suffering.

I am bloody upset with them. I also found out I am not alone in this. Loads more people who are upset with this situation.

A piece of advice to our managers, stop Sucking up to our big boss, he is another huge dumbass! Cant stand the sight of him even....he disgusts me! Every single thing under the moon he wants to do and who has tobecome slaves?? We do. Every damn thing he promise we have to do. Bloody kiamsiap fella. "dont worry, I will get the money for you guys" in the end?? cut budget till almost zero. My prayers is he gets moved out from this department...or better still "FIRED"!

I miss our old boss Alex Emmermann....yea, an american. He understands his subordinates so well so much so we are willing to put in the extra hours, he has passion for his workers, try to build relationship with us, acknowledge us even for the tiniest contribution...we WERE happy...

Those were sweet memories......currently its pretty much a living hell.

better stop soon...if not im gonna explode.

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I am almost in lala land.

I want to go home and sleep.

Another 2 hours and i'm outta here.

*Yawnnnnnn*

I finished my work, which is really, really good!!

Should have taken the day off....lazy bummer!

We were at queensbay for lunch, not really in the mood for shopping but thank you sayang....he bought me three cardi's....*smuaks *smuaks*

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I cant head home after work....

need to be at class......ballet class!

As I've mentioned before, I'll be taking my ballet exam early April..... so Feb and March is boot camp. We should be able to score distinction huh?? our extra classes is stressful........I can hear Ms. Khor's(our ballet teacher) voice echoing....."clear footwork", "turn out more", "point your feet", " lift up your back/stomach".........STRESS! It is stressful because I'm a full blown adult, my muscle are not as tender as a childs. Believe me...it is painful. But somehow we love the torture....LOL, good kinda torture and we loveeeeee ballet.

Anyways, me gotta stop blogging before i talk non-stop bout dance.

Ana Nicole Smith RIP

Aint that a tad too soon? Cause of death unknown...

Not a big fan of her, but for her to pass on so soon was a shocker.

Anxious to know how though....wait for the autopsy results.

Any news bloggers?

Soup for the Soul

The fruit of Silence is prayer.

The fruit of Prayer is faith.

The fruit of Faith is love.

The fruit of Love is service.

The fruit of Service is peace.

-Mother Teresa

My back hurts

Apparently I'm suffering from what is called 'muscle spasm' on my lower back. Hurts like hell.

I got it on sunday evening, during my jazz class, it came on me so so sudden.

And me being macho and all, continued dancing....aggrevating the injury. So by the time I got to Aaron's place, the pain was excruciating. I could barely be in one position for more than 5 minutes, the pain keeps inviting itself. It was soooo much of torture. Mom rub some ointment at the injured spot...it barely helped.

Needless to say my night was pure hell. I could not sleep. Everytime I change position, i let out a loud 'aaaahhhh'.

7.45 am - monday morning....alarm rings!!!!

My back was soooo stiff, could not move right nor left...it was like a block of wood. Aaron was suppose to fetch me to the doctor...THANK GOD!! Should have gone the night before, but as usual stubborn Sharon thought that it may all get better after I rest.

Had to wait an hour before I could see the doctor.

Rather long queue on a monday morning, people trying their luck to get mc. Half the people there dont look sick.

No.71....Yup, thats my turn.

I could not even sit down. Doctor asked me where the pain was.....and there he said 'You've got muscle spasm' . Im like, what is that? Doesnt spasm means my muscle will be shaking and not be stiff? He told me to rest my muscle, dont strain it and get plenty of sleep. So for 5 days i've been on muscle relaxant and voltaren.

Poor body of mine has been drugged.

Im feeling much better, but my back still hurts.

Say a lil prayer for me!!